Monday, July 5, 2010

I'm going to lose it!

I'd say that I've been struggling with my weight for about 6 years now, maybe more.  I noticed the weight gain in my late twenties but managed to lose some of those extra pounds in time for our wedding in 2003.  Gotta love wedding planning!  I was so preoccupied with wedding planning that I forgot to eat.  Never noticed being hungry. 

In the beginning of 2004, I broke my leg and gained all of the weight back, plus some extra.  Sometime after that, I started Weight Watchers Online and lost a good amount of weight and started to feel great both physically and mentally. 

Then, I started to get lazy and the weight came back again and brought some new friends. 

Add baby weight to that.  Okay, by now, it's probably not baby weight anymore.  It's all me.  Grace is 14 months old now and I haven't done much to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight, let alone the weight I was at the time of our wedding 7 years ago. 

For me, depression is a trigger for over eating.  Depending on what is making me upset will determine if I over eat or not.  Really upsetting things like a lost loved one, will cause me to lose my appetite.  But if I'm feeling sorry for myself for one reason or another, I'll eat. 

Boredom is another thing that causes me to over eat.  I'm bored a lot.

I need to be healthy.  I'm turning 40 this year.  My baby is just 14 months old and I would like to have another child.  There's no way I could physically handle any more added weight from another pregnancy if I don't do something to lose some weight now.  And fast.  Let's face it, I don't have many years left for having babies! 

Also, I want to be a good example for my daughter.  I'm so careful with what I feed her and try to keep junk food to a minimum for her.  But really how much longer can I stuff my face with unhealthy food while trying to get her to eat healthy.  Sooner or later, she's gonna want what I'm eating! 

While "getting lost" on the internet tonight, I saw that some other bloggers are getting together to support each other in reaching their weight loss goals.  Since I can't afford to join Weight Watchers Online right now, I think joining these other ladies will help me keep on track.  Being accountable to others will hopefully definitely help me.

I have a lot to lose.  But I think if my goal seems too overwhelming, I'll chicken out.  So, for me, I'll be doing a series of smaller goals.  Excuse me for a moment while I go break step on the scale and decide on my first goal. 

Okay, I'm back. 

Sigh. 

It's looking like I have about 60 lbs. to lose to be where I want to be.  That's a lot.  Really, a lot.  I'm tiny.  As in short.  Really.  Short.  So, an extra 60 lbs. is a lot to be carrying around.  No wonder my knees and ankles are hurting.  Well, they're hurting because of past injuries, but that added weight isn't helping at all. 

Okay, that's it! 

I'm ready! 

I'm going to lose it! 

I'm setting my first small goal:  20 lbs. 

This week, I plan on focusing on my commitment to be healthy and make healthy choices,  I'll focus on being accountable to the others that are trying to lose weight this week as well, and I'll focus on drinking enough water every day.  I don't drink enough water at all. 

So, if you want to lose weight and want some support, follow me over to the "How To" Homemaker!   



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5 comments:

Debbi Does Dinner Healthy said...

You go!! I'm doing the same thing! I just started a weight loss blog as well as my recipe blog to keep me accountable. It helps! Sure we're all strangers but it keeps you honest and it helps to share your successes and failures. I try to post every night on my weight loss blog. I wish you well and I'll try to keep up with you!

Moderate Means said...

Good luck! I blog about my weight, too. Accountability really helps and knowing that I'm going to have to admit to bad weeks online can help push through rough times.

You CAN do this!!

Stacy

Nancy Jacobs Basketmaster said...

Hi Alison,
I am soooooo glad you have joined us on living a healthy lifestyle to get to your goals. I am a firm believer that by making good solid habits, that we will reach our goals and KEEP it off! I loved reading your story and look forward to hearing your progress.
Sending you supportive hugs!
Nancy
http://www.howtohomemaker.com/

Colie's Kitchen said...

Gosh just reading your post makes me want to seriously cry. I have been “going” to start my diet since the first of the year, but the fat little girl in me keeps calling back my unhealthy habits.
I had an amazing body at one time in my life. Now I feel like a pig in heels!! My body hurts just about every place. I need to lose around 100 pounds how embarrassing is that? I am 5’ 5” that is obscene!
I am a boredom eater also, and a stress eater. I feel like I am just one broken promise after another. I have looked at weight watchers online, but wow, I cannot afford even the down payment for the first few months lol! I walk around 3 miles a weeks. I feel like even if I make the promise to lose weight in general I am so hopeless that I won’t actually do it.
I have already told myself that until I lose the weight I need to lose I won’t allow myself to get pregnant. I want a baby more than anything else in this world so why isn’t that enough?
I want to feel sexy again, I want to wear the clothes I did, and could wear, and I want my husband to have a hot-bodied wife lol. I feel like such a loser.

Mel's Corner said...

Sounds like your on fire and ready to succeed:) That is great...I have joined too. I've already lost 20 pounds but need to lose 20 more. It 's defiantly possible...but what I find is the key is a positive frame of mind and also a healthy self respect.

I'll be reading :)

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